“If you love something, kill it. Before it kills you.”
I am a villain, a monster and am here with a plan to execute. She is not part of my plan. She is poison and she is going to kill me. I will let her, because my broken black heart beats with love for her.
Death follows me like a shadow creeping silently after me, tethered to my blackened soul. I am cursed to carry it with me everywhere I go. It is never far away from me, and I am perfectly happy with that. The dark shadow of death keeps me alive in this rotten fucking world. Light through the grey shadow changes everything. It changes me. He took my madness and broke me. I am going to kill him.
Are you ready to love and let die with Callum and Shannon?
I think I’ve only just recovered from the awesomeness that was Colour My Ugly and then bam! Monochrome My Madness comes and took me on a whole other journey of love, lies, defeat, deceit, manipulation and murder.
I think it’s a real shame that people are going to dismiss this as a perverse and horrific story – the fact is – yes – it’s horrific. It’s confronting. It’s disturbing. Some parts are vile. There were points had me cringing and putting my hand over my mouth because some of the content made me feel uncomfortable – but it takes a strong willed woman – not unlike the characters – to be brave enough to tell a story like this and bust out of the box that people are so narrow-mindedly putting authors in. Those readers / critiques can return to their bubble – this book is not for you – you keep living in fantasy land where there are only good people on this earth and sleep with your light on!
When some of the content got too much for me – I had to remind myself – this is set in South Africa and Ireland. The things the author has discussed with me about South Africa in comparison to my homeland, Australia is just mind-boggling. The things that outrage me as a citizen here and would be dealt with a heavy hand by the law, is merely a blip in the daily happenings in South Africa. So the brutality might be outrageous to me, it’s not even considered an issue over there.
So in saying that – this book will have many triggers for many people. It’s tough reading. But the way the tale is written like a delicate web where each character has a string to play makes me give Ms Giannoccaro huge props. To create characters of this calibre and the conviction in their story is what sets her apart.
Shannon on the surface is beautiful. She likes fine things, she’s educated and she has an air of sophistication about her. But underneath that well put together exterior is a cold blooded killer. I originally thought ‘wow – she’s so unhinged’, but in her defence (yes, I’m actually defending her – can’t quite believe that myself), once you find out what happened to her – it’s understandable why she does what she does.
Shannon is complex. She’s not interested in Callum until he rejects her. This is a foreign concept to her – she always gets her way.
Callum sparked my interest in Colour My Ugly and I’m glad he screamed loud enough for the author to give him his own story. I don’t in any way shape or form condone or get excited by what he does. I just don’t understand how someone could be the way he is. If anything, Callum really helped with my gratitude lists. Thank God I don’t know anyone like him other than in the books I read.
This is a tale of cunning, a tale of love, a tale of heartbreak that is so twisted, you will wonder what the hell you just read. The complexity and unpredictability of these characters had me guessing the whole way along. Just when I think they have made some progress for the positive – BAM! Back they go to their evil selves.
They are cut from a very cruel cloth and I don’t think they are saveable. I was hoping and praying and wondering how it was going to come to a head. They might make a proposition to each other to make the best of a bad situation, neither of them expected to fall in love.
My heart was ripped to shreds with Colour My Ugly (something the author snickers about), this book has a different feel. Laurie was a pawn in a cruel game of revenge. Shannon is also a cruel victim but when it comes to her choices (of which I think she had few), she became a product of her environment. She became the thing she detested, despised and dreamt of escaping. Unfortunately, her fate has been doomed for a long time and it’s just a matter of time before we find out who wins and who loses.
Ms Giannoccaro’s ability to write something dark and perverse with such grace, boggles my mind.
This is a powerful tale of growth and that no matter how far you think a person has changed, a tiny trigger can set you right back into that devastating mindset.
I really enjoyed the cross over paths where it fills in the blanks for Callum’s time away in Colour My Ugly and get to catch up with how Rowan and Avery are travelling.
I love how the author can create such emotionally and mentally screwed up characters that consumed my mind. I couldn’t stop reading until I had all the answers. The end had me yelling ‘NO’ at the computer. This is not the outcome I had crossed my fingers and toes for. I honestly went back and reread the last paragraph and had the same reaction. The same feeling of dread and heaviness on my chest when I finished Colour My Ugly returned. I’m just numb. It takes a true master to make me feel like that. Many of my reads are quickly out of my head the second I open the cover of the next book – not these ones. These are firmly embedded in my brain.
I was kindly provided with a free copy of this book from the author to provide an honest review. Receiving this book for free did not influence my opinion nor review.
BUY MONOCHROME MY MADNESS VIA AMAZON