My name is Matthew Weston. Don’t call me anything else, because I won’t respond. And if you think you can get away with whimpering ‘Matt’ while I have you tied to the bed, about to devour you, it’ll end up being your loss.
Men like me don’t talk about feelings. We just don’t.
What men like me do is pound. I pound the asphalt with my running shoes on morning runs. I pound a punching bag in the gym until my knuckles bleed. And when I need a release, I find a beautiful woman sprawled out on her bed, eagerly waiting for my cock, and pound her into oblivion. Yeah, that’s me. I don’t have feelings, and I don’t do love.
At least I didn’t, until the night Ella walked into my office looking like a disgusting junky to interview for a position for The Onyx Club.
She was like no one I’d ever met before. She was timid, reserved, and quite plain with her mousy brown hair and dirty clothes. Ella also had a dark and haunted gleam in her eye. A secret, a past she was desperate to conceal.
And when she called me ‘Matt’ it didn’t seem to bother me.
She came into my life and turned it upside down. The only question is, can I screw her out of my system, or will my filthy desire for her keep her by my side?
Lordy – where to start with this book. I’m actually really conflicted but in a good way. I really enjoyed the story but there are parts of Matthew that I really didn’t like. I was pleasantly surprised by this debut author’s work. This is an aggressive, darker version of Cinderella where Matthew is Ella’s fairy godfather and prince charming all wrapped in one.
I really enjoyed the complexity of the story. This is not a simple girl meets boy and boy falls in love with girl. They are both damaged souls. I would love to find out how Matthew became the way he was with women. Extreme boundaries and dismissive. The story of how Ella became the way she was is heartbreaking and her growth is beautifully written.
The one thing I really didn’t like was the way he behaved around Ella when she was in her manic stages. When he smashed the window to get her to talk – umm – no. I don’t know how at that stage of their relationship, she didn’t run away or at least retreat.
There’s a fine line between being a dominant and a bully and Matthew walks that line all the time. She had violence used against her and I just don’t know how or why she gave her trust to him when he behaved the same with that caused her triggers.
In saying that, Matthew was able to show a great amount of compassion with the way he allowed her into his life, cared for her and ultimately loved her. The love scenes are intense and at some points, thought he might have taken it too far for her but Ella knows she is to safe word her way out and makes the transition from a brutal and broken fear of a sexual relationship to one that is based on trust, equality and respect. I thought they were very well written. High five for Sebastian to write an original love story.
I was kindly provided with a free copy of this book from the author to provide an honest review. Receiving this book for free did not influence my opinion nor review.